Hallie: “As a young first time mum, I was doing it on my own”

Hi i am Hallie. I’m 27 and a mother to 3 boys and 2 Angel babies.  I suffered PND with my first but didn’t realize it till just before I had my second.
My first bub (who is now 6) is/was to my first husband who at the time was never around was also extremely controlling and manipulating. I had no family and had very few friends here is QLD.  So as a young first time mum doing it all on my own I really struggled.
With my second to my new/current husband (my high school sweetheart) things became worse after I had him.  I would cry all the time and for no reason.  He’d come home and I wouldn’t want him to come near me or touch me, I just wanted to be left alone.
I finally gave in and realized I needed help so sought-after a social worker and she referred me onto Peach Tree, where I not only met some wonderful ladies whom I’m still friends with but can relate to.  Finally after 3 and a half years off and on of going to group have started to open up and share my story.
I refuse medication but see a psychologist on a regular basis and discovered that my problems go as far back to my childhood when I was about 8 and my mother left me and moved away.  I have never really had that mother’s influence in my life and spent most of my childhood being manipulated by my father.
Baby number 3 was hard again even though i thought i was getting ‘better’ and each day is a battle. But the Peach Tree and the ladies that support me have saved me more times than I can count. Thank you ladies. I don’t know where i would be without you all. Xo

haille

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